I had a walk. One of those “soul finding walks” where you walk by the river with piano music in the background, grey hoodie on, and the scent of summer rain after a prolonged dry spell.
My intention with the walk was to think about my decision of going back to Denmark to study. If you at this point still have no clue about what I am referring to, please click on the link below & COME BACK:
As some of you might have noticed on my Instagram stories, I was on holiday for awhile. My friend and I went to South of France for a week and then we kicked it off with the rest of the boys at the annual musical festival also called SMUK – Festival. In general, it was an amazing and intense holiday, meeting new people, seeing friends and family and creating loads of memories in such a short period of time. A note to myself: Remember to write a blog post about the two trips.
AT THE AIRPORT
The night I arrived in London after my holidays, I walked into his wall… Not a wall of heat which we did stepping out of the airplane in Marseille. But into some sort of a wall of realization. As I walked through the airport, saying “hi” to the security guard, talking to other travelers etc. Step by step I got the feeling of home and excitement. I looked at things, people, and listened to the conversations around me, thinking “what is it that I truly want?” “Is moving back to Denmark the right decision for me?”
I’ll be honest with you, I have been overthinking this for too long, and I know it! However, it’s been a constant fight between my heart, and my mind looking at the financial aspect of the decision going back to Denmark to study in comparison to studying here in London. As explained, we are blessed enough to have a free education in Denmark and the fact that my family is there is a major key in my decision-making! But…
I saw this quote a long time ago, and suddenly it found its way to my Instagram feed:
Ten years from now, make sure you can say that you chose your life. You didn’t settle for it!
1 year ago when I moved to London I had a vision, I had no specific end-date, and I had a goal to prove myself by bettering myself. Now, I look myself in the mirror, seeing how I have grown, seeing the lifetime opportunities ahead of me, seeing! And now, questioning my decision, well-knowing, I have just a few weeks before I have to start at University in Denmark, Aarhus. Well-knowing, that I have just shown my flat to this lovely girl who is excited to take over my room. Well-knowing, I have handed my notice at work, and I have my last day of work in a few days. Well-knowing, I have friends, good friends, best friends in Denmark excepting my arrival. Well-knowing I might disappoint some people around me. Well-knowing I am going to have a different approach to my close and beloved family… Well-knowing!
But my heart says “Stay!”. My heart says “Look at the opportunities”. My heart says: “Stay true to your vision”. My heart says “It’s possible”. My heart says: “It’s worth it”. My heart says: “It’s what you want!”… My heart says.
I AM STAYING
We finish where we started. My walk!
On my way back from my walk, I was talking to myself when it suddenly hit me. All this time I’ve been trying to find common sense in the decision-making, which is why I have been using the financial aspect of it, as a reason for why I should go back to Denmark to study. That’s the easy choice, that’s what people would say is common sense. But as the famous comedian, television host, producer, radio personality, actor, and author, Steve Harvey says “Common sense, just ain’t that common“, and during my walk, I got to the conclusion that the reason for why I have been dragging this decision for so long is because I have now realised, that I am actually leaving the nest and not ‘just moving to another country for a year’. No, I am doing what is hard, I am following my vision, my goal, my dream! I am jumping into the unknown. But I am ready, driven, and I am hungry for it! Let me just quote Steve Havey again:
If you want to be successful, you have to jump, there’s no way around it. When you jump, I can assure you that your parachute will not open right away. But if you do not jump, your parachute will never open. If you’re safe, you’ll never soar.
So, to sum up, the title Heart vs. Mind, the winner is my HEART!
I am staying in London and studying Marketing Management BA at the University of Greenwich, start 2017.
// First, they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, and then you win.
Thank you, talk soon!
A major apology has to go 2 amazing ladies, Sheila from Denmark, and Sif from London. You already know my decision, and have already got my apology for starting the show in terms of handing my keys as well as finding a new flat in Aarhus, Denmark. You both deserve all the best, and I am now doing my best to help out in any way possible in order not to make you feel left behind. Thank you both, for your understanding, talk soon!